…and pay Gio back for her dedicated, consistent posting.
First, a note on MEMOIRS:
–I’m way late for the party, but I finally got Bechdel’s _Fun Home_ from the library, and…. well, wow. This is a fantastic memoir–inspiring equally an emotional wallop and a visceral thrill at the layers of interpretive structure. Perhaps as a lifelong practitioner of the fine arts of swallowing feelings and then revelling in the freedoms of the text Bechdel struck me–in certain, yet significant ways–as a kindred spirit. Or put less obliquely: reading has always been a tool for breaking through my own social terrors, my emotional walls–even a way to see through, around, over, despite the walls that seem to pop up in my family. So while Bechdel makes some demurrals about how her endless ‘discovery’ of textual allusions might keep her story’s emotions somewhat distant, I think her narrative enacts the opposite: through the careful reading, she finds her way toward a kind of love (of her father, her self, her experiences) and grief, and out of shame and terror.
Two somewhat-analogous memoirs: one I read a while ago, Jonathan Lethem’s _The Disappointment Artist_, is sold as a collection of essays on art (from films to music to books) that mattered to him, but each chapter’s careful reconstruction of the pleasures of the text reveal so much about Lethem’s pains, pleasures, and psychology that it’s a thin disguise. Or, as he puts it in one of his essays, the texts are “the beards” that allow him to sneak past self-censors to engage with his younger self, as well as the disguises that self put in to try to fashion some coherent identity out of (and into) his daily life. Some of the essays are outstanding, and Lethem’s criticism is dead-solid-wonderful, even if I longed for perhaps more connectivity across the collection. (He wasn’t trying to do what Bechdel did, but that doesn’t stop me from saying I did prefer Bechdel.)
And right before reading Bechdel I read Jonathan Franzen’s _The Discomfort Zone_, another slew of essays, but more centrally focused on being the neurotic, unlikable narcissist Jonathan Franzen. Most of the essays circle in on some central concept — a text (Schulz’s “Peanuts” strips, a youth Fellowship group, birdwatching) — which in careful, detailed observations open up frames for seeing the author as a young man.
Two things stand out: one, the essay on the Peanuts is a glorious reading of that comic strip–which meant a HELL of a lot to me growing up, too–and its near-bitter generosity toward the neurotic and nasty impulses of its protagonists. Franzen does some lovely things reading the drawings, particularly the heads, and some even lovelier things reading how the cartoon(ish) offers us up a chance to engage with an “otherness” and with ourselves, how a cartoon can allow the kind of dismissive, derisive human engagement with those different while also painfully exposing the links to our own experience. We laugh at the big-headed kid, but the openness of his face and the painful regularity of his fate are both draws toward a more expansive empathy (opening us up to love that other, and ourselves, even more). I don’t do it justice–it’s great stuff.
And then (two) this reading of such cartoonishness serves as a template for how to read the characters/caricatures in the memoir. The Jonathan Franzen of these essays really is almost painfully awful in so many ways. And it’s beautiful. Without ever glossing into sap or sentiment, while maintaining a corrosive critical attention to the failings of this young man, Franzen engages our sympathy. It’s fantastically funny–somehow being the kind of self-absorbed thing I despise in so many memoirs, while also brutally revealing such self-absorption. (Michiko Kakutani, reviewing it in the Times, didn’t see any such structural irony, and just hated the narrator; I, however, see this in line with Albert Brooks or Woody Allen’s painful self-revelations–self-absorbed, yes, but never less than scathingly self-critical. And funny.)
–I also read Jess Walter’s _The Zero_, which is the story of a NYC police officer who’s losing huge gaps in his consciousness of his everyday activities, in the days and weeks following 9/11. It is a blistering satire of the selling of grief, the self-absorption of Americans, the lightning-fast return to the kinds of political and economic and social fraud prevalent before the attacks (but now flying under the cover of sanctimony and patriotism and fear). The ’shtick’ of the gaps–scenes ending abruptly mid-sentence, and the book kind of rolling along, whole blocks of event and narrative not revealed or represented–is surprisingly effective at catching something of the feelings of trauma (around the event), the amnesias of sociopolitical life, the fragmentation of contemporary media, and so on. There is an ostensible thriller plot behind it all (a sense of conspiracies in which the protagonist may, in his lost moments, be a central agent) but it’s mcguffin: read it for the glorious details, the attitude, the resistance to the mainstream narratives of 9/11 which are so hard to imagine an escape from. Plus it’s funny. Did I say it’s funny? It’s funny.
–Long ago I promised some words on Tom Drury’s latest series of sly existentical comic digressions disguised as a noir novel, _The Driftless Area_. I won’t give it to you now, or ever–I liked the novel, and I remain a huge fan of his. But instead go back to his first novel, recently reprinted after years out of publication: _The End of Vandalism_ shows off the same seemingly-plotless comic beauty, detailing a year’s worth of months in middle(-of-nowhere) America. Drury writes the kind of sentence and paragraph that leapfrogs away from expectation into surreal and/or silly delight; he’s like a patient detailed social realist whose resistance to master narratives, whose attention to the real plotless pursuits of everyday life, emerges in an atmosphere of laughing gas. I love the novel, line by line, and yet I’d be hard-pressed to tell you the plot. Stuff happens.
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